How We Began!

In June of 2018 I was at a low point. Low and lost. I was functioning in survival mode; fight, flight, freeze all in effect at the same time.  A tiger was pacing behind the steel bars of my chest. She was either going to escape this time, or lay down and become a shell. Hi, I’m Heather and this is the story of how Tracy and I started a podcast. 

A year before I had been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, I was looking for a way out of a toxic relationship, I was released from an interim teaching position, depressed, battled suicidal thoughts, and in the worst pain I had ever been in my life. The entire year was a blur and my memories are vague at best, but I do remember when I found myself climbing into my car with my kids and taking the 9 hour drive to Utah to see my friends Jeri and Tracy.

I remember sitting in their backyard, the birds flitting through the trees, the backdrop of the mountains, as I drank in the tranquility of the summer breeze and the peace of being with dear friends. Even still the anxiety constricted around my chest and the tiger continued to pace. Tracy noticed and took charge. She slipped into the house and came back with a journal and a spiral bound workbook. “I believe this can help you,” she said. She explained that the lessons would help me move out of my own head and into a better space. The caveat was that I would have to meet online with her once a week and go through each lesson and agree to journal everyday; a 6 month commitment. Without hesitation, I committed and gathered up the materials in my arms. “Yes! Anything! Thank you!”

For the next 24 weeks we met faithfully on Zoom every Saturday morning, going through the lessons together. The healing and growth were palpable. Clarity, purpose, and peace seeped into the cracks of my broken heart. I noticed that the cage in my chest opened and the tiger stepped out and rolled as if feeling the grass and sun for the first time. The tiger became the young, adventurous girl that I had locked away decades ago.

When the 24 weeks were up, Tracy suggested we continue our Saturday meetings and keep the momentum going. So, our conversations continued each week as we discussed the new lessons we had learned, Divine interventions that had occurred, new goals we were on our way to accomplishing, new struggles we faced, and encouragement to keep us leveling up. Additionally, we celebrated each new victory and often looked in the rearview mirror to reflect back at all the growth that had occurred over the year.  There are so many details of growth, challenges, and the Divine in each day that I will save for future blogs.

During one of our weekly conversations, Tracy shared one of her usual profound, inspiring nuggets of wisdom and I blurted out, “We should start a podcast!” Without hesitation, Tracy responded, “Okay!” and true to form, she began laying out a plan.

So here we are. Sharing our nuggets of inspiration, Universe Kisses, and evidence of the Divine in each day in hopes that you will open the cage of your heart and release the YOU that has been locked up for so long. It’s time to reconnect with the Divine.